I love producing (Taken with instagram)
negative positive
Damn… I’m gonna be really really real right now…
I just got in a fight with my girl…
First off this will not make sense or be punctuated correctly so shut… Please
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Ok I read this book called Takin’ Over by a rapper Lil’ B… Personally this book changed my life and the whole outlook on the world I have. it makes me want to love more, be positive and just tell everyone they are so special just start doing uplifting things…
One thing you should know about me is that I’m an angry person and I let my anger control everything around me I let it take control and let it run free and say hurtful things and it somehow tricks me into thinking I’m happy after that I’m content but I know I’m not…
Another thing is I’m terribly jealous and possessive I want what I want and don’t want to hear anything else… I’ve ruined a gang relationships by being this way and currently I’m doing this in my current relationship… I hate when my girl goes out without me and my girl has this gay friend and they used to just chill alone and it burned me so bad!
But why?
I don’t know honestly…
My parents splitting up and bring with other people before I even knew what was going on, girls who cheated on me, other traumatic episodes that went on in my life…
Don’t know.
I’m angry though and that frustrates me I wanna change… I know real men don’t get mad and get jealous so I wanna get post this but is out humanly possible???
The more I think about it I say no but as a human anything is possible…
I know if I keep going on this road we won’t last and I’ll be in another relationship that ends the same…
I just want everyone to know I’m so flawed and I am not scared to say that but I am scared there is no resolution to my anger and pain
I love y’all so much
I just wanna collab… ok?
Indie
you guys should point me in the direction of indie artists who need exposure. any genre.
I had a boom box like this growing up
Lydia Medill’s “Cow” Music Video Behind the Scenes
& here is the behind the scenes video for “Cow”
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http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/236642813/lydia-medills-the-chicken-and-the-owl-ep
Lydia Medill - Cow Feat. Kelly Micotti
So yeah I don’t believe I posted this on here but please please please watch this it’s from the crew Persevering Destiny. I even have a small part in it (Hint: Pizza Scene).
So much fun and one of the most pro independent videos EVEEEER!
Shout out to: Alex “JPK” Catedral & Justice Ott
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Dr. Dre - Get Your Money Right Feat. Jay Z x The Game
“Gettin’ Your Money Right…”
I honestly have been trying to work social media back in to my life, ever since I actually took on the challenge of becoming an “artist”, I just mold my mind around how I can create something new and I want to be personable to people. There are so many career aspects that I’ve added to my life that I actually need a calendar to tell me who I’m gonna be on specific days.
- Beat Maker
- Artist
- Marketer
- Song Writer
- Social Media Tech.
- and so on and so on…
I enjoy all the things I’ve decided to take on, it’s just a tad bit of a learning process to do so many things, make all of them work, and function on 2 hours of sleep. But that in essence is how you make your money now and days, there is no sleep, and you have to be some what good at it all, especially being apart of a group that is dedicated to launching other human beings career’s. I just to conquer the real challenge, making it easy and fun for them, easy and fun for me, and being human about things instead of a business robot.
Then my own career, if you haven’t noticed I decided to make a name change, I’m just trying to be unique and enjoyable, I find it to be the hardest thing to get people to understand me and my music, which I feel maybe is always a starting problem. Beat maker and artist combined in one brain trying to figure out what the people around me will like and mold my life accordingly, I don’t want to be a product of the name or career choice but rather the other way around. I ramble, but for good reason, I recognize a hefty amount of tumblr users are a real creative force in their own right, I respect it and I just want you to know I sympathize.
I find that mentoring has also helped me stay grounded in my musical pursuits, whether it be in my own group or at school, I’ll only be at this school about a year longer and then my life shall take me else where but I hope I can leave some sort of lasting imprint on fresh minds, while they weave their way through treachery.
I feel all in all that in some way having multiple personalities is a good thing…
Anyway, keep it fresh, keep it humble, learn a whole lot, and come together when you feel it in your heart.
For me all I can do is keep going.
I hope I can fill your brain with something,
Cardian
- Cardian
